I still hate change....
after 4 and a half months in Hampton, I am most likely going to be leaving Thursday. I find out tonight. And even after being on a mission for 6 months, I still hate change. I have been working my brains out in Hampton, and it is finally starting to shine, right as I am about to leave! We have 4 people on date for baptism, and I am not going to be able to be there for any of them! I don't care a bit about the numbers, I just have grown to love these people so much, but I won't even be there for the biggest moment of their eternal lives. I have seen such a change in these people, and it feels wrong giving the reins over to someone else. This is my area, and my work, and there is too much to be done.
But that is just arrogance talking. I will go wherever the Lord wants me in his vineyard. Because in reality, this is has only, and only will ever be his work. I was just lucky enough to be his servant in this part. Most of the work I feel that still needs to be done is with myself. I feel I didn't learn all I could from Hampton that I could have. But then again, if I ever did, that would be bad. Always more things to learn and ways to grow.
I don't have a lot of time this week, but I still love my mission more every day. And I am learning the importance of turning my whole will over to God. There is an awesome quote by C.S.Lewis.
To be a servant, God asks," Give me all of you!!! I don’t want so much of your time, so much of your talents and money, and so much of your work. I want YOU!!! ALL OF YOU!! I have not come to torment or frustrate the natural man or woman, but to KILL IT! No half measures will do. I don’t want to only prune a branch here and a branch there; rather I want the whole tree out! Hand it over to me, the whole outfit, all of your desires, all of your wants and wishes and dreams. Turn them ALL over to me, give yourself to me and I will make of you a new self---in my image. Give me yourself and in exchange I will give you Myself. My will, shall become your will. My heart, shall become your heart."
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